Inspire 2019

Do you ever sense a peculiar cloud hanging over you, despite the positive momentum in your life? It's as if, no matter how many milestones you achieve, the ideal destination remains elusive.   Consider this: today, you proudly receive a Guinness World Records award for your exceptional talent, only to find tomorrow that the year is ending, and that stubborn extra belly fat persists. It's a constant balancing act between accomplishments and the unmet expectations of where you envision yourself.   Could it be self-sabotage, a deficiency in gratitude, or the incessant urge to compare yourself to others? The weight of self-imposed expectations can make it feel like you're consistently falling short in the race of life, burdened by undue pressure.   In those moments, be kind to yourself. Despite scrutinizing imperfections and fixating on minor setbacks, acknowledge the many great achievements throughout the year. Life is an intricate blend of short and long journeys,

I’ve found peace in pain! I’ve found peace in strain! I’ve found peace in not catching the last train! For it’s all fleeting! It is never long lasting! It comes strong like the whirlwinds in the harsh season! But it passes eventually like every season ! It’s always here for a reason ! But it goes away when the time is right! Like a thief fleeing away into the night!  I’ve found peace in joyless-ness! I’ve found peace in loneliness! I’ve found peace in craziness! The chaos in life with the confusion it always brings ! Like hail storms it will rain down and break a few things!  But that too shall be swept away !  It’s only there for a spell!  Eventually only time will tell! How long it will stay!  But eventually it shall go away!  Peace comes at the break of dawn! It eventually comes and clears the things that fell down! And then everything that happened won’t be in vain! With pain comes gain! With disappointment comes discernment! Agony comes with a testimony! Rest in your disarray!  It

You owe yourself a good life! You deserve to see all your dreams come true! African women are strong resilient women! We are hard working yet very feminine! We can carry babies on our backs and carry pots full of responsibility on your heads! Yet we still manage to kneel down to show respect to our elders and husbands.  We are an economic powerhouse that the world can no longer deny!  We stun on runways and we rock the white color jobs! There’s nothing in this world more beautiful than the dark rich chocolate melanin that drips of confidence and never aging; never fading beauty! Black women deserve happiness and softness and with our intelligence we can give ourselves a beautiful life.  I see women that haven’t gone to school make crafts out of beads and banana fibers. Now that’s raw art! I see women deep in the village fold grass into a beautiful weave to carry pots of water from the well.  An art form as beautiful as a bird’s delicately crafted nest.  Get up my fellow black women! We

 It’s no one’s responsibility to heal you. No body is in charge of monitoring your triggers and walking around you carefully like you’re some  delicate bomb ready to explode anytime .  No one should have to walk on eggshells around you because you are not doing the right steps and putting in the effort to heal.  I used to bask in my damage and brokenness. I was completely comfortable surviving on the failing crutches of my pain.  The warm embrace of depression covered me completely like a warm blanket in the cold of winter and I hugged it back even tighter. Me and my depression had trauma bonded like how you would with a narcissist ; and we were quite enjoying our relationship. My demons loved me and were always there for me in the dark of the night as I cried my eyes out when nobody else was there. I loved them too. I never was alone when the lights went out! Naturally, I saw no point of healing. I was loved by what tormented me and I was not alone as long as I held onto them tighter.

 To say 2022 was overwhelming is an understatement. I had the worst beginning of the year until the start of the last quarter of the year.  My depression was on an all time high; there was chaos after chaos.  My house was on fire and nothing could extinguish it. My anxiety was through the roof. I was on meds after meds. I got premature low blood pressure for a spell but in the end I survived and I'm completely cured now. Last year I was going through lots of drastic changes from; emotional, financial, mental and spiritual.  I was living in pain and agony for years prior to 2022. I was literally in survival mode for about 7 years of my life.  I barely slept, ate or couldn't stop myself from crying ; every night and sometimes days. Consequently,  I had to move back to my parent's home. I literally needed that break after four years of living with  no real general direction.  I had so much pressure on myself to be perfect even if I had very little pressure from outside. I envi

All my life I was the epitome of the strong independent woman. I was out of my parent's home by 25, I had bought myself my first little car by then and I was on my way to building a multi billion beauty industry with my beauty brand called frotextured. I seemed to have been doing quite well but I was never satisfied or happy. I was constantly tired and yet very empty. I felt like lot was missing yet I couldn't pinpoint exactly what exactly that was! Of course that left me more frustrated and even more anxious. I overworked and overslept; that was my cycle. I therefore constantly looked drained and rough as I never had enough time for self care. My cycle was work, anxiety and sleepless nights. I got low blood pressure at a young age! Consequently, I never was walking in my best feminine power or energy. In the end, I attracted the wrong partners. I had no self esteem or time to be feminine because I worked day in day out. I had no divine masculine support so I had to embrace the