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Divine feminine



All my life I was the epitome of the strong independent woman. I was out of my parent's home by 25, I had bought myself my first little car by then and I was on my way to building a multi billion beauty industry with my beauty brand called frotextured.

I seemed to have been doing quite well but I was never satisfied or happy. I was constantly tired and yet very empty.
I felt like lot was missing yet I couldn't pinpoint exactly what exactly that was!
Of course that left me more frustrated and even more anxious.

I overworked and overslept; that was my cycle. I therefore constantly looked drained and rough as I never had enough time for self care.
My cycle was work, anxiety and sleepless nights. I got low blood pressure at a young age!

Consequently, I never was walking in my best feminine power or energy. In the end, I attracted the wrong partners.

I had no self esteem or time to be feminine because I worked day in day out. I had no divine masculine support so I had to embrace the masculine side and bring on the donkey w. 
This made an easy target for all the kinds of men high value women avoid; non providers, lack of emotional intelligence and general instability.

I was severely depressed and had to start taking anti-depressants. I had no self love and I was filled with bitterness and resentment. 

I had worked so hard yet I had no time to enjoy any of it. I couldn't regularly spoil myself with cute feminine things like; shopping, spa or regular salon visits.
No one ever believed I had a significant other through all my past dating life because I was still struggling like I would be if I was alone.

It took therapy for me to realize that I was drained because I was operating in my masculine and not in my feminine. 

I begun to research about divine femininity and my life literally transformed. For the first time in my life I was attracting high value men that provided and were not struggling. My pressure issues evaporated and I finally had enough time to care for myself because I could finally go shopping, go for spa and even have weekend get-aways!

There's nothing more powerful that living and walking in your divine feminine. When you know yourself and know your power, there is absolute no way you ca ever settle for less.
I embraced my divine feminine power and my life has never been more joyous; I have never looked beter. 

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