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Releasing oneself




 To say 2022 was overwhelming is an understatement. I had the worst beginning of the year until the start of the last quarter of the year. 

My depression was on an all time high; there was chaos after chaos.  My house was on fire and nothing could extinguish it.

My anxiety was through the roof. I was on meds after meds. I got premature low blood pressure for a spell but in the end I survived and I'm completely cured now.

Last year I was going through lots of drastic changes from; emotional, financial, mental and spiritual.

 I was living in pain and agony for years prior to 2022. I was literally in survival mode for about 7 years of my life. 

I barely slept, ate or couldn't stop myself from crying ; every night and sometimes days.

Consequently,  I had to move back to my parent's home. I literally needed that break after four years of living with  no real general direction. 

I had so much pressure on myself to be perfect even if I had very little pressure from outside.

I envisioned my business being at least regional (All of East Africa), having some mini factory and storage facility that can double as a small salon and physical shop.

Alas, the time came and nothing I had planned had to come pass by 2022. My business wasn't yet where it was, I still was single with no real prospects and quite honestly I was through with it.

I was so over life at that point. Nothing and I meant not even one thing was going according to plan. And I had a melt down of the century; which ironically was  my turning point.

 It took a lot of therapy, dedication and the will power to choose a more quality life to get me where I am now.

Depression almost robbed me of myself and sanity. I was a like a little lost lamb in this confusing maze of life.

I intentionally changed my life with the help of my parents, doctors and pastors. I chose to stay present and look forward always instead of focusing on the traumatic lemons that life had thrust at me!

Regardless, I met some amazing people in 2022 that helped me grow financially, emotionally, spiritually and mentally.

I allowed to release myself from pain, suffering, regret and worry and instead focused on growth, happiness and to keep moving forward.

The chains of  depression were forever broken when I released myself and I'll forever be grateful that I chose to write a whole new chapter of my life.

A whole new life where I gently row my boat down the stream without fear of what is ahead or worry of what I left behind.

Instead, I was excited about what's ahead in whatever waves it comes in. I'm not chasing waterfalls; I'm pursuing a fulfilling life!

Happy New Year!

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