Inspire 2019

When a butterfly's wings have beautiful shouting colors, everyone wants to chase it to the end of the earth, hold it ever so gently between their palms and just secretly admire its God given beauty just in time to let it go so that it can continue to shine its  light to the world. The beauty of the butterfly is so exciting but its freedom is what makes it even more magnificent. Sweeping gently through the mild breeze and adding to the beauty of mother nature. Some people however, want to crush it mercilessly so its beauty remains nothing short of a temporary memory in their head! It seems absolutely deranged, but it gives them a thrill that they managed to end the life of something beautiful. It's like a power source; energizer; adrenaline rush! Truthfully, beauty doesn't spare you from pain. Sometimes it attracts more pain than just being a plain Jane. Ask the parrot in the cage or the glorious lion at the zoo; closed behind cold metal bars for tourists to se...

In my search and journey to find myself, I've realized that in order for me to reach my zen; in order for me to have absolute happiness, I have to integrate these 5 "P's" into my life; 1. Peace "Peace is flowing like a river." Peace of mind is one of the best remedies for unhappiness. A lot of times we get stressed, anxiety ridden and worried because our main temple; our mind is being tempered with spiritually. Someone or something is robing us of our peace of mind and causing negative feelings of depression, sadness and anger that begins to consume us. I've had to de-clutter my mind, day after day, weeks after weeks and months after months to truly get to a place of happiness. When your mind is clear, you're able to find space for improvement, you're able to think clearer and you're able to grow as an individual. Think of your mind as unread notifications of months or junk mail crowding your inbox. As long as it is not cl...

Mental slavery is real. I've been a prisoner of my thoughts many times and almost allowed myself to drown in the deep end. I've stayed laying in bed for hours long after it's time to get up as I welcomed unnecessary thoughts into my head. I've stayed up at night staring at the ceiling allowing unruly thoughts to settle heftily in my throat and collapse begrudgingly at the bottom of my heart. I've had days where I literally convinced myself things were happening and they really weren't. I've had times where my mind couldn't allow reason and relaxation and I found myself acting out and being overly emotional. It's so easy for your mind to make you its slave and trick you into an imaginary world. We get anxious, depressed and then we lose ourselves. All because we have failed to escape the prisons of our mind. Breathe in, breathe out and meditate when your brain is trying to create a situation. You're not alone, you're not weir...

Sadness is so addictive. It creeps in on you and slowly drags you to the dirty corner. Covering you with dust and vomit that has accumulated from years of negligence. One moment you’re extremely happy or think you’re happy and BOOM sadness takes over. It cuddles you and holds on tight so you won’t wring out of its embrace. It sings you deathly lullabies each night and clings onto you until morning. It becomes your best friend and worst enemy that you can’t help but fully become dependent upon it! It kisses you with nostalgia and emptiness! It diminishes your light slowly by slowly, one by one… Then sadness becomes a part of you and in the moment you positively believe there’s nothing you can do about it. You withdraw from everyone around because you believe she is your only companion. Everything else around becomes a mere distraction before you can go back home to your best friend! She’s the only one who understands and won’t judge you or make you feel any sadder! You wa...

Worry is wearing down your soul and you don't even know it! You're worried if you'll meet someone who loves you unconditionally and will ride with you into the sunset of happily ever after! You're worried if your business will make you enough money that can afford you lavish vacations and a luxurious lifestyle. You're worried whether your family will approve your life style or even ultimately be proud of you. Worry is the thief of all joy. It keeps you trapped in a future that isn't even certain. Anxiety consumes you first, then sadness then slowly you start to slip into depression. Before you know it,you're a prisoner of your own thoughts. Everything around you is against you and all because of scenarios you created in your head, can't control and are not even sure of. As human beings we only have control of one thing. And that one thing is us. That one thing is our thoughts. That one thing is how we react or respond to our thoughts and ...

Living in the moment is one of the most beautiful things to do in life yet also the hardest. We've become such prisoners of our past and future that we fail to see what is right in front of us passing us by; day after day! Another day gone! Another moment never to return! Nothing learned, nothing earned; just reliving memories of yesterday both painful and joyous. Every new day is a beautiful day. The sun rays kiss the leaves; lifting the glistening morning dew off the flowers. The birds chirp a song of promise and the cock crows almost maliciously to remind us that this is the day that the lord has made and we should rejoice and be glad in it! Now, imagine staying in bed pining about how things could have been better! How if you did something or if they changed something, it would all be okay! Blaming someone else for how miserable your life turned out in just a matter of weeks because they failed to give to you what even you yourself perhaps don't understand; pea...

Every single one of us is trying to heal from something: broken relationships, messed up friendships, dysfunctional family, depression and lots of other disappointments in our every day life. Therefore, I try to be patient, tolerant and kind to everyone that rants or tries to tell me about what they are going through. It is so easy to tell people to move on and get over it. It's almost natural to tell people to stop being so negative and just pretend to be happy. But what you're doing is pushing people into a darker place. You're encouraging them to stretch their mouth out in a hurtful fake smile that will later turn into tears at night and nothing will ever be solved at the end of the day! Our society today preaches the "fake it till you make it lifestyle." And that is why suicide and depression are at an all time high today. We are walking wounded souls with zombie like routine smiles to make everyone comfortable. Pain is weakness and vulnerability is...