Sadness is addictive

Sadness is so addictive. It creeps in on you and slowly drags you to the dirty corner.
Covering you with dust and vomit that has accumulated from years of negligence.
One moment you’re extremely happy or think you’re happy and BOOM sadness takes over.
It cuddles you and holds on tight so you won’t wring out of its embrace.
It sings you deathly lullabies each night and clings onto you until morning.
It becomes your best friend and worst enemy that you can’t help but fully become dependent upon it!
It kisses you with nostalgia and emptiness!
It diminishes your light slowly by slowly, one by one…
Then sadness becomes a part of you and in the moment you positively believe there’s nothing you can do about it.
You withdraw from everyone around because you believe she is your only companion.
Everything else around becomes a mere distraction before you can go back home to your best friend!
She’s the only one who understands and won’t judge you or make you feel any sadder!
You wallow in sadness and wrap yourself completely in it like a childhood blanket!
You feel its warm hug and you’re completely consumed in her world!
It has a promise of never letting go and being there for you always!
Sadness is addictive but it doesn’t have to last forever!

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