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Human beings are such amazing creatures.

I had a rough end of the year due to unforeseen circumstances and I thought; "how will I survive?"
My festive season took all the energy and strength I had to get through it.

I was devastated and broken. I struggled to get through it. I went through meals and tears disguised under the hugest smile.  I attended parties with dampened mascara and eye bugs but by God's grace I made it.

If anyone wore sadness and stress beautifully it was me!
I made everyone laugh and danced through my pain and anxiety. I danced all night until the sun came up.

I was always the fun girl and there was nothing "party pooper" about my aura. Not even once.
Bathrooms were for tears and dance floors were for dropping it like it's hot. Snoop Dogg would be proud.

I was crying for help day in and day out but I had to stay strong.
However, some people saw through my pain and the amount of people that reached out to help was unimaginable.

I had strangers hugging me from the bar after my failed attempt to stay composed. I had virtual strangers sending me flowers hearts and old friends buying me candy and wine.

I had loved ones dishing out numbers of professionals and giving me warm embrace upon their bosoms.

Others offered me unlimited time to rant and hit them up when I felt I couldn't hang in any longer.

I was drowning and all these beautiful positive souls were fighting so hard so I didn't stay at rock bottom.
My tears of pain turned into tears of gratitude as I sucked in all the energy.

So many people wanted me to be strong. I didn't know if I could do it at first but I found that I started to be strong as their energy bounced back to me.

I had to be strong for me. I had had my protective layers stripped off and I was raw from strangely familiar yet unexpected energy.

I made it through in no time and I feel so liberated and filled with hope.
No matter how tough it gets, just remember human beings are just beautiful creatures and you'll always have someone to lean on!
It does get better ❤😍


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