Inspire 2019

As a woman I've learned so much in my 1/4 century that I've been in this complicated yet beautiful world! You start from being this sweet little girl that dreams of being a pretty little princess clad in purple or pink tutus accented with a huge a Cinderella bow and topped up by a diamond tiara. You are obsessed with tea parties, fairies and everything is sunshine and rain bows. Life is at its finest, until enter puberty! All you think about now is how dreamy the boy is in the romantic novel. How you can't wait to have your real first kiss! Everything is oh-so-lala- land fantasy until your first love breaks your heart and then something changes. The romantic fairytale your mother warned you would burn you when you're a teenager, comes crumbling down! Enter 21 and you're probably long wide eyed from experiences of barely any heartbreaks but enough! You're healed and ready to go again. Love, hurt, heal repeat is the motto. Then comes more comp...

"No one's really that valuable. It's just a societal construct to give an illusion of grandeur about someone you are attached to" My friend said this to my face and at first I was shocked, then disappointed then it slowly begun to sip in. He had had enough of me talking about my disappointments with people and everything else in my life and he had distanced himself a bit. "Hope you take life too seriously" he casually joked when we had conversations. Steve had become a friend of mine in an unlikely environment. I used to tuck myself in a little corner in a restaurant listening to meditation music and loud reggae music from the bar in what seemed like utter seclusion every evening since the year begun. I was constantly overwhelmed from everything going on and being there by myself every evening felt good. I didn't know anyone and no one seemed to know me at first. Then one day I met Steve. He said he saw me sit alone every evening for ...

"What do you want to be in life?" My friend asked me through his thick spectacles that settled comfortably on his shiny nose! I thought about it for a few seconds and I just said it out before I could say anything else. Before I could convince myself that there was truly anything else I desired! "I want to be happy!" I replied with a satisfied smile. "You're wise beyond your years!" He replied and took a sip of his beer. I got lost in thought as he prepared to lecture me about what I already figured out about life! He actually spoke the same words I thought. We'd become like intertwined souls! After weeks of talking deeply about life with someone you almost become like soul mates; twin flames! Being able to finish each others sentences yet nothing romantic prevails between us! Success and money or material wealth means nothing without happiness! That is why millionaires and celebrities will kill themselves day in and out regardles...

Making love to life is the single most important yet toughest thing to do for us mortals! It's like finding a g-spot on a woman! Dare I say; It's like trying to make a woman orgasm. Life is as complicated as love; as a woman perhaps! You think you're doing it right and before you know it, your level best is the bare minimum! One moment it's smiles and excitement and another it is like crying on your bathroom floor; crippled from cramps that won't stop aching your entire being to the core! Just when you think you've mustered this life thing, everything crumbles and then you're like a widow clutching onto hope! Hope that perhaps she'll meet her husband in heaven one day and be pleased beyond relief; like the Mona Lisa, clearly satisfied but ever so subtle! Life is like a speed bump! The rush of it all; the joy! But the jolt brings us back to the harsh reality! What a life to be ever so present; exploring the unknown but barely cutting the s...

Everything we decide to do is a choice! Sometimes it is easier to hold onto hurt than to let it go because it has somehow become part of your identity. You choose to stay sad. Go out everyday, week after week.  You can barely be around people. You cannot survive being alone either because the cycle becomes addictive. Self loathe, self drowning and self pity became a great comfort zone. Zero productivity and inspiration cuddles you until you're so comfortable in being "in your own world" A really dangerous place to be. Perhaps there are things we all can't heal from completely. Maybe some scars are meant to be permanently tattooed in our souls. The more I seek out people to talk to, the more I realize how damaged everyone is. People are walking zombies trying to numb out pain and trauma. Human suffering has no basis for comparison. We all struggle differently. Yes some people have it way worse but it doesn't mean your pain should be discr...

When a butterfly's wings have beautiful shouting colors, everyone wants to chase it to the end of the earth, hold it ever so gently between their palms and just secretly admire its God given beauty just in time to let it go so that it can continue to shine its  light to the world. The beauty of the butterfly is so exciting but its freedom is what makes it even more magnificent. Sweeping gently through the mild breeze and adding to the beauty of mother nature. Some people however, want to crush it mercilessly so its beauty remains nothing short of a temporary memory in their head! It seems absolutely deranged, but it gives them a thrill that they managed to end the life of something beautiful. It's like a power source; energizer; adrenaline rush! Truthfully, beauty doesn't spare you from pain. Sometimes it attracts more pain than just being a plain Jane. Ask the parrot in the cage or the glorious lion at the zoo; closed behind cold metal bars for tourists to se...

In my search and journey to find myself, I've realized that in order for me to reach my zen; in order for me to have absolute happiness, I have to integrate these 5 "P's" into my life; 1. Peace "Peace is flowing like a river." Peace of mind is one of the best remedies for unhappiness. A lot of times we get stressed, anxiety ridden and worried because our main temple; our mind is being tempered with spiritually. Someone or something is robing us of our peace of mind and causing negative feelings of depression, sadness and anger that begins to consume us. I've had to de-clutter my mind, day after day, weeks after weeks and months after months to truly get to a place of happiness. When your mind is clear, you're able to find space for improvement, you're able to think clearer and you're able to grow as an individual. Think of your mind as unread notifications of months or junk mail crowding your inbox. As long as it is not cl...