Inspire 2019

"What do you want to be in life?" My friend asked me through his thick spectacles that settled comfortably on his shiny nose! I thought about it for a few seconds and I just said it out before I could say anything else. Before I could convince myself that there was truly anything else I desired! "I want to be happy!" I replied with a satisfied smile. "You're wise beyond your years!" He replied and took a sip of his beer. I got lost in thought as he prepared to lecture me about what I already figured out about life! He actually spoke the same words I thought. We'd become like intertwined souls! After weeks of talking deeply about life with someone you almost become like soul mates; twin flames! Being able to finish each others sentences yet nothing romantic prevails between us! Success and money or material wealth means nothing without happiness! That is why millionaires and celebrities will kill themselves day in and out regardles...

Making love to life is the single most important yet toughest thing to do for us mortals! It's like finding a g-spot on a woman! Dare I say; It's like trying to make a woman orgasm. Life is as complicated as love; as a woman perhaps! You think you're doing it right and before you know it, your level best is the bare minimum! One moment it's smiles and excitement and another it is like crying on your bathroom floor; crippled from cramps that won't stop aching your entire being to the core! Just when you think you've mustered this life thing, everything crumbles and then you're like a widow clutching onto hope! Hope that perhaps she'll meet her husband in heaven one day and be pleased beyond relief; like the Mona Lisa, clearly satisfied but ever so subtle! Life is like a speed bump! The rush of it all; the joy! But the jolt brings us back to the harsh reality! What a life to be ever so present; exploring the unknown but barely cutting the s...

Everything we decide to do is a choice! Sometimes it is easier to hold onto hurt than to let it go because it has somehow become part of your identity. You choose to stay sad. Go out everyday, week after week.  You can barely be around people. You cannot survive being alone either because the cycle becomes addictive. Self loathe, self drowning and self pity became a great comfort zone. Zero productivity and inspiration cuddles you until you're so comfortable in being "in your own world" A really dangerous place to be. Perhaps there are things we all can't heal from completely. Maybe some scars are meant to be permanently tattooed in our souls. The more I seek out people to talk to, the more I realize how damaged everyone is. People are walking zombies trying to numb out pain and trauma. Human suffering has no basis for comparison. We all struggle differently. Yes some people have it way worse but it doesn't mean your pain should be discr...

When a butterfly's wings have beautiful shouting colors, everyone wants to chase it to the end of the earth, hold it ever so gently between their palms and just secretly admire its God given beauty just in time to let it go so that it can continue to shine its  light to the world. The beauty of the butterfly is so exciting but its freedom is what makes it even more magnificent. Sweeping gently through the mild breeze and adding to the beauty of mother nature. Some people however, want to crush it mercilessly so its beauty remains nothing short of a temporary memory in their head! It seems absolutely deranged, but it gives them a thrill that they managed to end the life of something beautiful. It's like a power source; energizer; adrenaline rush! Truthfully, beauty doesn't spare you from pain. Sometimes it attracts more pain than just being a plain Jane. Ask the parrot in the cage or the glorious lion at the zoo; closed behind cold metal bars for tourists to se...

In my search and journey to find myself, I've realized that in order for me to reach my zen; in order for me to have absolute happiness, I have to integrate these 5 "P's" into my life; 1. Peace "Peace is flowing like a river." Peace of mind is one of the best remedies for unhappiness. A lot of times we get stressed, anxiety ridden and worried because our main temple; our mind is being tempered with spiritually. Someone or something is robing us of our peace of mind and causing negative feelings of depression, sadness and anger that begins to consume us. I've had to de-clutter my mind, day after day, weeks after weeks and months after months to truly get to a place of happiness. When your mind is clear, you're able to find space for improvement, you're able to think clearer and you're able to grow as an individual. Think of your mind as unread notifications of months or junk mail crowding your inbox. As long as it is not cl...

Mental slavery is real. I've been a prisoner of my thoughts many times and almost allowed myself to drown in the deep end. I've stayed laying in bed for hours long after it's time to get up as I welcomed unnecessary thoughts into my head. I've stayed up at night staring at the ceiling allowing unruly thoughts to settle heftily in my throat and collapse begrudgingly at the bottom of my heart. I've had days where I literally convinced myself things were happening and they really weren't. I've had times where my mind couldn't allow reason and relaxation and I found myself acting out and being overly emotional. It's so easy for your mind to make you its slave and trick you into an imaginary world. We get anxious, depressed and then we lose ourselves. All because we have failed to escape the prisons of our mind. Breathe in, breathe out and meditate when your brain is trying to create a situation. You're not alone, you're not weir...

Sadness is so addictive. It creeps in on you and slowly drags you to the dirty corner. Covering you with dust and vomit that has accumulated from years of negligence. One moment you’re extremely happy or think you’re happy and BOOM sadness takes over. It cuddles you and holds on tight so you won’t wring out of its embrace. It sings you deathly lullabies each night and clings onto you until morning. It becomes your best friend and worst enemy that you can’t help but fully become dependent upon it! It kisses you with nostalgia and emptiness! It diminishes your light slowly by slowly, one by one… Then sadness becomes a part of you and in the moment you positively believe there’s nothing you can do about it. You withdraw from everyone around because you believe she is your only companion. Everything else around becomes a mere distraction before you can go back home to your best friend! She’s the only one who understands and won’t judge you or make you feel any sadder! You wa...